impossible
to escape the nightmare
constantly reclaiming me.

scratching out an escape
only to hear
'where're you going, girl?'

a faint ray
disappears again.

years of
'faith'
'you can do it'
'it will get better'
wither to nothing.

still balancing the egg and spoon,
walking the tightrope,
blindfolded,
no net.

hopes pinned on ether,
it's hard to believe anything,
anymore.

~~ by